Is Marriage Holding Me Back?

Funny question. Being married to Dan certainly isn't holding me back from anything! He supports me and my effort to find and better myself. For other people looking in, however, what does it look like? Some day, it will look like profound dedication and love.

Right now my file in placement is one of the last ones being considered for the program that leaves this summer (if you can call September "summer"). My placement officer is going to call me to ask me about leaving my husband. I hope I can impress upon him how much we love each other and, at the same time, why Dan and I are special enough to make it work. Also, I'd like to make the impression that I would consider myself to be truly committed to serving in the Peace Corps. I do not want to start something I can't finish. Part of wanting to serve in the Peace Corps is dedicating myself to that cause. In dedication grows edification.

Now I'm nervous, because the officer is going to call by sometime tomorrow. I hope he calls today, since it's my only day off, and Thursdays are my busiest day of the week! The phone is now going to be a part of my outfit for the day, I believe.

What Do I Believe About Leaving My Husband?

I believe we'll still be together after 27 months apart.
I believe we'll be able to communicate over the distance.
I believe we'll accomplish great things in our lives during this time.
I believe we'll be sad at times, but that sadness will not interfere with our duties and our lives.
I believe we'll find a support network wherever we are.
I believe we'll be okay.

What Do I Believe About Myself Without My Husband?

I believe I will be strong enough to complete my service.
I believe I will be happy.
I believe I will be sad, and miss him, but that I won't stop loving him.
I believe I will appreciate the gift of independence and dedication he's giving me.
I believe I will discover talents I know are inside me, and develop them, use them, and bring them home.
I believe I will be a better person for him to love.
I believe I will be proud of him for his sacrifice and care.
I believe I will be proud of myself, and a more loving, giving, focused person than ever before.
I believe I deserve to try, and so does Dan, and that's why we will be okay.